Ever Since I Knew Myself

Filmstill Ever Since I Knew Myself

Ever Since I Knew Myself

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Maka Gogaladze
Panorama: Central and Eastern Europe 2024
Documentary Film
Georgia
2024
87 minutes
Georgian
Subtitles: 
English

In her childhood, Maka attended her hated piano lessons in tears. When she asks her mother about it, she is told that this torment is extremely important for discipline. The conversation prompts an examination of whether current pedagogical routine in Georgia has strayed far from such a concept of education. A music school in which brutal emotional and verbal pressure is part of the curriculum; a ballet school where little girls must endure intense pain while stretching; a primary school class where even the most passionate recitation of a patriotic poem about the heroes of the motherland is cause for criticism. We plunge into a somewhat surreal, at times hilariously rigid world, reminiscent of a Palaeolithic dinosaur desperately trying to save itself in the present day.
“Steel is tempered by fire,” says the mother. Her words express the burden of responsibility for her beloved daughter and convey many warm, previously unspoken feelings. “But I am a human being first,” Maka replies. The loving daughter insists that the idea of humanity based on authoritarian power structures must be overcome, because it is still reproduced in the most private relationships, including those between parents and children.

Vika Leshchenko

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Director
Maka Gogaladze
Cinematographer
Maka Gogaladze
Editor
Maka Gogaladze
Producer
Maka Gogaladze
Sound Design
Vano Arsenishvili
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Irma Gogaladze, Nino Nergadze
Nominated for: MDR Film Prize